hamishe yek no' faskho tajzieye gharibi raa tey mikardam...gaahi fekre chiz hayi ra mikardam ke khodam ne mitavanestam bavar konam...aghlab ba yek nafar ke harf mizadam ya kari mikardam raaje be mozoo' haaye gunagun dakhele bahs mishodam dar sooratike havasam jaye digar bud be fekre digar budam va tuye delam be khodam malaamat mikardam...yek tudeye dar hale faskho tajzie budam...

mikham beram pa nadaram mikham naram ja nadaram gerye konam del nadaram dad bezanam,naa nadaram.... hich vaght be zendegit mese ye charkhdande negah kardy?in kheyli ta'bire khubie man ino tu ye keatb khunde budam,ye siasatmadar ke belakhare be jayi mirese ke karayi ro anjam mide ke delesh nemikhad vali majbure...agarche khodesh,tahe delesh,adame "khub" i ye...akharesham mardom enghelab mikonano e'daam mishe...hodesh ye jaye ketab mige:hes mikonam too ye charkhdande gir oftadam.... in charh...

iruz az yeki az ostada vaysade budam eshkal miporsidam...azam porsid chera jalaseye ghabl nayumadi manam khali bastam ke ostad halam bad bud raftam khune.unam shooroo kard ke are khanum manam halam kheyli bade az feshare kaaro in harfa o bachche ham behem migan cheghadr kar mikoni...nemidunam chera vaghty harf az bachche hash zad be nazaram umad kheyli aadame maahie..!be nazaram umad kheli doost dashtanie,cheghadr vaghty be ye aam az ye zaavie i gheyr az inke felaan kaaras,masalan ostaade,negah ...

man az in adamaye zaeef ke hamash be khatere chizaye bikhod ghor mizanan badam miad kheyliam badam miad vali sharmande,alan kheyli delam mikhad ghor bezanam!!! emruz C mo kheyli bad shodam,alan mundam hazfesh konam ya na,age hazfesh konam misham 15 vaahed!hoselasham nadaram terme dige dashte bashamesh.bayad farda beram ba shamsollaahi mashverat konam bebinam hazfesh knam ya na...cheghadr delam vaseye niloo tangide bud emruz zang zadam besh ehtemalan 5 shanbe miram pishesh:X kashki niloo sharif...

emruz yeki az bachche ha ye chizayi behem goft ke...kheyli ta'ajjob kardam. maa aashe nakhorde o dahane sukhte im be ghole Niloofar. manam chizayi behesh goftam ke un vasash ajib bud. ghablana doro bariam baram kheili mohem budan.hame bem migoftan bade ke inghadr doro bariat vaasat mohemman...kam kam khodam inghadr azashun bady didamke dige na khod agah ahammiateshuno baram az dast dadan.ba'd a zun dustaam budan ke kheyli vasam mohem budan.yeki do saal aslan ma'roof budam be inke kheyli havay...

goftani ha kam nist mano to kam goftim mesle hazyaane dame marg az aghaz chonin dar hamo bar ham goftim... emruz parisa ro duidam...ba'd az doro bare 1 m,aah...inam aslan tu daneshgah peyda neishe,...emruz fekr kardam chetor ta hala be aghlam naresid ebud hamnishe zohr age beram self peydash mikonam! rasty Cm ro ham hazf nakaram...didam age gharar be hazf kardan bashe fizikam vaajeb tare!inmam ke inghadr nomre ahye C mun baidsh tu cheshm mizane o bachche ha hame miran hazfesh mikonan jav ger...

avval inke duste Arash(dadasham) 2 sa@ pish zang zad goft emtahaneshun aghab oftade...(emtahane takhassos) ye tikkeye nomreye C ro gereftam...5/12!! ))haminam ziaadim bud Izadi kheyli maraam gozashte...man tu omram kamtar az 10 ta barnameye C neveshtam,ke 3 taash sare emtahan bude!!baghiasham male ye ruz bude ke Mitra gofte bud bia khuneye ma dars bekhunim!!hich kodoome prozhe haaye C ro ke har kodoom maslaan 2-3 ruz tu behtarin halat vaght mibare ro khodam naneveshte budam.hala khoda kone in h...

emruz mikhatsim ba S berim birun ke sahar ye moshkeli pish umad barasho natunest,oftad farda.be har haal kolli telephoni harf zadim ham man raahat shodam ham un.ba'd az harfaash taze fahmidam man be onvane ye duste sade cheghadr rush ta'sir gozashte budam.karayi ro ke un gablan aslan nemikard,ba'd azinke ba ham dust shodim shoroo karde bud.vaghe'an adam age bekhad vojdan dashte bashe kheyli zendegi sakht mishe chon bayad havasesh be tak take kalame hayi ke be digaran mige bashe.man ino kheyli di...

emtahanamun shooroo shode....diruz riazi dadim ke bad nashod...ba'd az emtahan yeki az bachche haye gorooho didam(81 i)besh goftam mabani bargh aslan jozve nadaramo sare kelasam naraftam chi kar konam be nazaret?mobilesho dar avord goft bia in ax migire ye mobile axie dige ham jur mikonam midam be felani ke barghye 79ie in chiza ro balade,sare emtahan az varaghat ax begir befrest barash!!dashtam omidvar mishodam ke dustesh goft harfe ino gush nakon in kar ye bar lo rafte!!4-5 ta sare emtahan ham...

alan dashtam jozveye shimi aalie 6 nafaramo negah mikardam...aay hoda hcgehadr in darsaa naaz budan....cheghadam khafan budan!!!!kheyli delam vasashun tangide...ye ruz pa sham bera, ysc sare aaze 6 nafare jadid...rasty pas farda ham emtahan riazi darim aslanam hoselasho nadaram.terme ba'd ham hatmane hatman parvareshgaah miram (yaarigaran)akhe karam ta hala karaye dakhelie gorooh budo markaze behzisty nemiraftam vali sare ghazieye Bam har kodoome bachche ha aghalan ye kare asasi kardan man hich ...

emruz emtahane aaze fizik dashtim ke khub dadamesh...kheyli khub shod be har hal darse ye vaahediam ye vaahede khob!! haale N tu madrese kharab shode bud...man bahash dare madresashun gharar gozshte budam ke ye eshtebah bikhod pish umado hamo nadidim be jash man eyne maman ha raftam ba moshavereshun harf zadam vaz'esho porsidam goft kheyli vakhime(pishdaneshgahie)...ham fiziki ham mentaly...goft age ba in vaz' pish bere bayad be fekre rotbeye balaye 5-6000 bashe...kheyli narahat shodam man behe...

taghriban az sobh ta hala birun budam vali na daneshgah...sobh raftam bank ye poooli kheyli laazem bud mihastam az hesabam var daram ke taraf gir dad:avvale daftarche neveshte haghghe bardasht ba madarete!!in daftarcharo mamanm kheyli vaght pisha dorost karde bud,nemikhastam ham beram be hkodesh begam biad.ba estedlale manteghy ham nbemishod tarafo ghane' kard chon migoft hanuz 18 salet tamum nashode!!ye kam ghesse baftam ke daneshju amo unevadam shahrestanano in poole ham kheili lazeme hich kod...

emruz cheghadr khaaabam miumad!!hamgoroohim gofte bud emtahane azemun momkene emruz bashe,kholase sa@o gozashte budam ruye 4 ke paa sham bekhunam,ba'd paa shodam sooratamam shostam didam kheyli khabam miad khabidam!sare kelas zaban khabam borde bud bachche ha bidaram kardan goftan pa sho kelas khali shode ostad dare mire....too mashinam moghe'e bargashtan khaabam borde bud vaghty maashin resid baghaldastim bidaram kard!2 sa@ pish ham mikhastam beram bekhaabm ke mamanam goft bia barname haye shab...

dokhtara yre sery akhlaghaye kheyli kasif daran...vaseye harf zadano samimi shodan ba ye pesar,(mostahel az inke aslan un pesare be in hame activite be kharj dadan mi arze ya na!!!!!)hazeran gand bezanan be dokhtaraye dige......ke esmesho neminevisam chon yeki a zkesayi ke inja ro miknhune mishnasatesh,kheyli kare badi kard dar haghghe S.neshaste budano ba ye pesare kheyli maskhareye mozakhraf kolli behesh khandide budan.vaghe'an delam vaseye S sukht.in dokhtare ke goftam ham az unaas ke badjuri...